Our hearts are filled with landmines
left by those who were supposed to love us
before
said they loved us
before
we knew how to say
this doesn’t feel like
love
this doesn’t feel like
wanting
this doesn’t feel like
cherising
Someone new says something and
while we know the pain is not
what they mean
it’s hard to ignore
the expeirence talking
saying that those words
in that order
are a well travelled pathway
to pain
I was finally starting
to open up again
now the shock fear paranoia
as I scramble to hide
the parts of myself
that can be cut with your knife
We cry the tears
we didn’t cry at the time
no time when we’re struggling
just trying to survive
I never had time
to process this pain
I kept it buried
until the time comes again
someone says those words
like key in a lock
they fit right into my heart
and pull out that old pain
for me to look at
I can see hear and touch it
this time
now that I finally
know I will survive
any and all of your
soul crushing pain
I love you.
What do those words mean again?
Account For Me 